An update…an apology

Aug 4, 2016 Posted By Jessica, 1 Comment »
   Categorized Under : Personal

I haven’t posted a new blog in a month, even though I’ve updated most pages on the site. I want to apologize for being out of it. I have a lot going on in my life and I have been too stressed to blog.

So, for the update. I received a registration date three weeks after a classmate of mine. I knew it was too late to get any classes, but I hoped for the best. Although, the best is unlikely to come to me. Long story short, I was unable to get most of the classes I needed for this semester and to complete my SLPA program on time. I have the next class I need on wait-list, but there is a very small likelihood of me receiving an add code. It’s incredibly heartbreaking as I’ve wasted four years trying to complete this program, along with thousands of dollars, all to be forced out.

Since I’m not feeling all that super happy, so I’m going to take a few days off to come to terms with my current situation. I’m not quite sure how to feel right now.

I hope you all are well. I’m sorry for not staying up to date. My tumblr has been updated: akissinthedark.

Oh so much happened

Jul 5, 2016 Posted By Jessica, 2 Comments »
   Categorized Under : Personal, website

First, I hope you all (who celebrated) had a wonderful and safe Fourth of July!

Next, I apologize for not replying or adding up the new layout like I said I would sooner. Some stuff happened and life was being troublesome.

The actual reason I didn’t put the layout up was because I had some weird allergic reaction for about 3 or 4 days and I wasn’t sleeping. I was covered, head to toe, in hives. I still don’t know why. I’m not allergic to many things, but I have really bad reactions to those few things I am allergic to. For example, I’m allergic to mosquitoes. Every year here in Southern California, we have the West Nile outbreaks (usually starting in Orange County). It’s frustrating since my reaction to the bites looks like West Nile. They multiply and one bite can get bigger than an inch (2.5cm give or take). I thought I was bit by a mosquito since it was multiplying, but it kept getting worse. Then I thought it was a reaction to insecticide (since I’m allergic to that too). I still think it might be the insecticide I used for the mosquitoes since it’s really strong. I was having a really hard time. Now I’m getting hives from scratches from my cat and I’m irritated.

After that, I was trying to get ready for Independence Day. Shopping around is so frustrating. About 2 weeks ago, we went to go shopping for clothes, but the car wouldn’t start. Long story short, the battery was completely dead and I had to spend all my new-clothes-money on a new battery. Now, about a week ago, we went out to go shopping for the beginning of the month and the service engine light went on. It’s still on. We haven’t gotten around to going to the mechanic.

Yesterday was the Independence Day (Fourth of July). Seriously, never in my life have I heard so many fireworks. And not in a good way. They were still going off at 2:00 in the morning. Setting off car alarms every 3 minutes (literally, no joke). It’s illegal in City of Los Angeles to have fireworks, but the cities in Los Angeles County have their own rules. I live in an inconsiderate city in LA County filled with maniacs. There was more ash from the fireworks in the grill than from the charcoal. I could hear the ash falling on the awning. Blahblahblah.

Honestly, I’m sorry I didn’t update the layout sooner. I’ve just been really out of it. I had two sucky things happen to me (old landlord issues and school issues) and I’m just trying to get over it. If I don’t reply quickly, I apologize. I’m still wallowing in self-pity.

Please stay safe. I hope you’re all well! I’ve moved the cbox to it’s own page. I might add it beneath the comments soon. I completely redid my stylesheet for this layout. It took over a week to make. I hope you all like the new layout. It’s super bright and might be irritating, but I love it.

A micro update, layout preview, + rant…

Jun 15, 2016 Posted By Jessica, 1 Comment »
   Categorized Under : probably going to regret this, Resources, Tutorials

So, I added a few new things: color schemes (20) and revamp signs (6). I also added content preview images, replacing the simple links I had before. I added 3 new actions to my tumblr. I’ve been trying to update my youtube more lately, but haven’t be doing that well. I did add an advanced preppy text tutorial and simple manga quality improving tutorial. I’m still working on rearranging some pages on this site, but I figure I’ll go into a full change when I put up the new layout. Speaking of the new layout…here is a preview. It’s featuring singer/model Koharu Kusumi.


I haven’t made the full layout yet, so it will be up in a week or so. I haven’t been super energetic lately. I have been having a hard time sleeping. Blah blah blah. I wanted to make a tutorial on this layout, but it takes me forever to make a layout for myself. This was the third layout I made before I was happy with it. Now I’m not happy with the content and sidebar images.

As for the rant…I normally don’t do this, but I was annoyed recently. It’s long.

I don’t talk much, I try to but I’m just not talkative. I keep to myself and I hate drama. I don’t check out many sites and I only comment on sites I genuinely like. I don’t always update, but I put 100% of myself into my work because I want the best quality representing me. Back in the myspace days, people were incredibly petty. I started on myspace when I was 12 and I left when I was 17, creating my first site. My site’s content has always been created solely by me. Ever since the old myspace days, people have redistributed the same content. No, those aren’t your brushes. No, those aren’t your textures. No, those aren’t your color schemes. No, those were not made by you.

Now, I’m not going to list the site’s name. I don’t want to start a problem like so many other people have. But honestly, if you read this…Don’t rant about people stealing your content when you stole your content. Just because you cropped some other person’s textures or photographs does not mean they were made by you. “Don’t redistribute, these are 100% mine”…Really? Really now? Because I saw those 10 years ago on Saruna. I saw those brushes you’re claiming to have just made on SwimChick. Those aren’t your graphics or resources. Stop being a hypocrite.

Next…Who cares what editing program you have? If you practice enough, you can make anything. I’ve seen gorgeous graphics made in Gimp and Paint Shop Pro, but if you gave me either I’d have graphics that look like what a 3 year old would make in Microsoft Paint. Look for tutorials. There are tons of things out there to assist you. It’s not hard. Most sites I see have the same exact base layout. It took me years to code and I HATE MAKING CODES from scratch. It’s irritating. “Did I make it right? Let’s check…Oh wait, these links aren’t working. Oh! I know what happened. Wait…that wasn’t it. Oops, I messed something else up.” It’s hard, but worth it.

Lastly. Don’t bring your drama to my site. I don’t want it. Do I know you? No. Have I spoken to you before? No. I am pretty sure I have a lot more issues in my life than your minuscule problem with someone telling you they don’t like your site. Womp womp. You know how many times I’ve been told that? TONS! Get over it and better yourself.

Honestly. I hope you are all doing well. I don’t just say that to have something to say. I completely hope that you all live happily without any struggles.